Well, what a weird few weeks it has been! So much and so little has happened... I should never stop writing. It gets me in all sorts of messes and makes me lose focus.
That same ex that I picked the scarf up from? Yeah, he and I have been trying out a friends with benefits (in the loosest sense of "benefits" you can think of). It worked for a bit, but I kept hoping he would say he wanted to get back together. That never happened, so tonight I got up the nerve to tell him that we couldn't talk anymore. That I deserved a real effort from someone. Of course to him, it was as though I'd cut off his arm. He even begged me for another chance. To prove that he really cares about me. I may regret this, but I told him that if he was going to try and prove to me that he cares about me, he has to know that he wants a relationship with me in the near future. We'll see what happens.
In the mean time, I've joined another online dating service. I may be crazy for doing it, but we'll find out. I've met a few nice guys, some only after certain things, but it's interesting all the different people you meet. At least one ones on the site are closer to me... not that I'll be meeting a whole bunch right away.
Aside from that, my friend from out of town came for a visit. It was so nice having him here for the weekend. However we spent our time together, I enjoyed every second. He's like my relationship cheerleader. He tells me that I'll find what I'm looking for, and I'm starting to believe it.
Outside of relationships, work is awesome!! I absolutely love my job! And fraternity stuff is picking up again, so I'll be off to Milwaukee on Friday! Spending quality time with my bros!!!
I know it sounds like I didn't say much. I don't really do that much, honestly. If you have some words of wisdom, comment, question, whatever, feel free to comment. Even if you feel like you have to be harsh with me, I can take it. Life is tough. The more opinions I have, the better.
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