Now, D and I have worked things out. I've made it so that I have more time at home with my friends and family, but we're still able to spend time together. We were able to talk and learn more about each other, and I think that's helped me to understand why sometimes we have communication issues or this or that.
It's clear that I love him and am not leaving or threatening to leave anymore. I want and love him as he is. Whatever barriers we have, I'm going to be patient and work on them with him. I'm thankful that he really wanted to work things out this time.
He was right about my habits. I was upset more that it took that long to bring them up, than that they were actual issues. I have some things to work on, but doesn't everyone? It'll take me some time to get there, but I want him to know that I'm trying for me and for us.
I realize that he doesn't really know what exactly what he wants from this, and I'm ok with that. I know that means I could get my heart broken again, but I've gotta take a risk if I really want this to work.
I probably sound like I'm being walked all over, but at this point I don't care. I've got someone who takes care of me and lets me take care of him. Someone who misses me when I'm not around. Someone who I can tease and have fun with. Someone who thinks I'm ridiculous, but likes that side of me anyways.
So D, if you read this, know I'm in this. I'm not expecting things to move quickly. I just know that I want to be with you for as long as I can. I'm not going anywhere. And I promise I'll do what I can to make you happy. You already make me incredibly happy every time I talk to you, see you, or even get a text from you. I'll continue to prove it to you everyday. Yes, I'm going to screw up and say the wrong thing or get super emotional, I'm a girl. But at the end of the day, I'm yours, and as long as you want me that'll never change.
Oh and while writing this, I'm listening to Lady Antebellum's new album, Golden. It's beautiful. Give it a listen. :)
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