Saying Goodbye

So if you haven't noticed already, I have a very hard time saying, "Goodbye," to people. Especially if it means I will never see them again. Well, I can tell you this: I do it because in my mind I've developed a strong bond with this person. Living without the possibility of talking to or seeing them again is incredibly difficult for me to deal with. That's why it took me 6-7 months after I broke up with my ex, who kept trying to get me back, to stop responding to him and cut every last tie I had to him. That's why up until Christmas of this year I was still pining for my first love in hopes that things would finally go my way. And that's also why I continued to do things for the ex who didn't have time for me in hopes that I would win his affections back.

I've finally said that enough is enough. I've cut ties with all 3 of them. I can't even talk to any of them without feeling hurt or disappointed, so I'm better off moving on. I'm thankful for what I do have: 4 amazing guys friends that tell me how awesome I am. Though I would never date any of them, it's nice to know that they care. One of them I talk to everyday constantly. We flirt and joke and kid. We're definitely attracted to each other. The thing I like best is that he really cares about what I have to say. We care about each other. My second guy friend has been my brother for 4 years. We encourage each other to do our best and are there when the other needs a listening ear. The last 2 are my neighbors. They come over and visit us, making life a lot more interesting. They talk about using their guns on any guy that hurts me (I hope they're kidding). I'm so thankful for amazing guys that look out for me. It helps to have them around. Makes me feel a lot less lonely. Makes saying, "Goodbye," to the guys I can't or don't want to be around that much easier.